birth-day

i dont know who i have become. 

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my head tells me that all i have to do is x-y-z and i will be beautiful again.  but it is becoming quite apparent that its really not that easy.  i have to do something, though, because... well, quite frankly, i am hating what i see when i look in the mirror. i realize how enormously unhealthy i am - emotionally and physically.  and so...  with this blog, i hope to make a change.

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i have decided that i will keep this journal for a year, during which i will lose 100 lbs.  i dont know how "do-able" that is, but it is what i would like to do. i want to fit back into my size 14s at the minimum. 

on the first of every month, i will post comparison pictures and stats (of course, tomorrow will just be that sad, sad starting pic.)  i am thinking that if i am accountable to you, my dear audience, then maybe (just maybe!) things will be different this time...